Some days, the Just For Today email from Narcotics Anonymous really hits the nail on the head for me. Today is one of those days.
“I don’t have to be miserable unless I really want to be. Today, I will trade in my misery for the benefits of recovery.”– Extract from Just For Today email.
There’s a lot of crossover between the ideas of NA and those in other philosophical traditions such as Buddhism and Stoicism. And this is a great example.
Look, I get it: it’s human nature to tell ourselves we are justified in our misery…
Perhaps a political party we despise has just been elected (as will happen for a large proportion of the UK electorate in the next few days). Perhaps our boss at work is treating us unfairly. Maybe we’re suffering from some kind of mental or physical illness.
But I like to remind myself of Victor Frankl and his 1946 book, Man’s Search for Meaning. Viktor survived the Nazi concentration camps. If anyone had good justification for feeling miserable, it would be him.
And yet – he took control of the way he reacted to his horrific circumstances. He didn’t let them get the better of him.
Can We Help Being Depressed?
I’d like to think I know what I’m talking about when it comes to depression and suicide. I’ve been depressed on and off for most of my adult life and been close to suicide several times.
When I’m feeling really low, it feels like a kick in the teeth to be told that I should just decide to be happier. It feels ludicrous and absolutely impossible to even try. And I want to punch anyone who suggests it, no matter how well-meaning they may be.
But whilst in the depths of depression, I gradually came to accept an incredibly profound concept:
“Whilst I am not to blame for my depression, there are certain things I can do which can make things better for myself.”Bollinger, R. 2019
Interestingly, Narcotics Anonymous says something similar about addiction.
Now, as I’ve alluded to above, if you’re currently depressed, often the last thing we want to hear is that we have a responsibility to try to get better. It’s much easier to throw our hands up in the air and say, “Hey, I have an illness. I can’t help it. There’s nothing I can do about it.”
That freedom from responsibility seems appealing, comforting almost – it allows us to take a break from caring. But it’s a silk-lined trap.
“When we recognise that there are ways we can help ourselves, and we’re not condemned to suffer indefinitely, that’s incredibly liberating.”Bollinger, R. 2019
No Quick Fix
Now, I’m really not saying that a depressed or addicted person can just click their fingers and magically decide to be happy. It’s not that simple.
As any behavioural psychologist worth their salt will tell you: behaviour change is hard. And that’s because we have to build up healthy habits, which takes practice and time.
It takes incremental effort, every day, as we attempt to make our lives just a little better. Just one tiny step forward every day will result in us eventually finishing a marathon.
Actually, it’s even better than that: if you improve 1% every day, by the end of 1 year, you’ll be 37.7 times better than when you started. (I blogged about this idea here).
(Note: not 37.7% better, 37.7 times. That’s 3,770%!)
So, over to you…
What small things are you willing to do, today, which might help you feel less miserable, more fulfilled, happier with your lot in life?