I’ve now set my previous post from today to private – only I can view it.
As much as I wish I could just be totally open and honest on this blog, the reality is: I can’t.
My actions have consequences, ripples on a pond. And it’s not fair for me to just do a brain dump to the Internet and then expect everything to be fine.
My propensity for openness is not fair on my wife, our families or our friends. It adds emotional strain which no-one asked for.
I can’t vent my spleen and expect everyone it touches to react like some kind of perfect counsellor. That’s unfair and unrealistic.
The harsh reality is that my openness is selfish. And this isn’t the only way in which I’m selfish. It’s something I need to work on. Russell Brand says selfishness is at the core of addiction, I have no reason to doubt him.
I promised my wife I’d always be open and honest with her. I still think that’s a very wise decision. But that doesn’t mean it’s necessarily a good idea to share all my thoughts and experiences more widely.
So, from now on, I’ll be more careful about what I share on this blog.
Anything that’s highly emotional or personal, I’ll share that on a new blog where I’ll have 100% anonymity. That way, I can speak completely freely, with no reservations. And hopefully my writing will benefit strangers, without harming those close to me.
It should be win/win for all concerned.
Sorry for the distress and concern caused by my previous post.